I was nervous and second guess myself as I realized I was pretty much alone. I had only meet some of the other Rett Moms just a few days ago. I found myself crossing the starting line and reminding myself that I can and will do this. My motto had been "Failure is not an option." I ran the first 7 miles with out stopping. After a quick pit stop I continued on full of energy and adrenaline. I was doing this. I felt great. I will finish. By mile 11 I could feel it in my calves. People were slowing down and dodging the masses of people was starting to take it is toll on me. But my spirit never wavered. I ran on. I knew that i would be done in approximately 20 minutes but kept on telling myself 30. I stopped at the 12 mile mark and took my picture and then the last mile. It was hard and it was getting hot. I was finding that all of this mile was a bottle neck after bottle neck which slowed me down. I thought about just walking this last little bit but this cast member was clapping and looked me in the eye like she knew where I was and said, "Do you hear that? It is the finish line." She was right if I concentrated I could here the crowd. I could feel the emotions welling up in my throat which makes it very hard to run and breath. I can't stop the tears. I. HAVE. DONE. IT. It is like a movie in my mind as I think of all of the people who helped me get to this point. Who gave in honor of Korinna and then I see the finish line, the people and I think of her. I did this for her.
I find myself at the Girl Power to Cure tent getting my picture made with Korinna's picture. I look up and see him. My support, my rock and my partner. He has brought ALL of the kids to great me. I hug and the kids remind me that I am sweaty and sticky. We enjoy the fellowship with other people and families that have been affected with Rett Syndrome. And this happened. At 0.24-0.35 I am doing everything I can to overcome my emotions and keep my composure.
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